Saturday, September 12, 2009

Summer was Awesome - Bring on Fall

Well I really didn't get to finish everything I wanted to write down yesterday as I had to head out for work!

Summer was awesome!!!! We didn't do alot but still had a great time. Went to Niagara Falls with & without the kids several times. Went to the beach with friend/s. But mainly just relaxed!!!

My healing process from surgery is complete now. Thank God!! But Doctor says that I'll never be able t o move furniture by myself again......There goes that fun lol ! But summer is over now!! The ending of something but the beginning of another!!

Brandon started High School & I was very scared for him!!! But he is doing awesome!! He absolutely loves it. Jordan is on his own this year (without his body guard that is lol) but he seems to be doing great also!! He is not impressed that he doesn't have any friends in his class but hopefully his marks will reflect that!! lol I can hope can't I????? lmao So I'm kind of at a loss!! They have totally baffled me, both of them! lol But hey, what are kids for??? :o)

I myself have gone to full time hours. I started my new job back in May after my surgery. I was hired on part time but one of the girls, :'o( miss her already, went on maternity leave so now I am working full time for a year!! I love my job! My boss is great, the girls I work with are awesome, although one of them drives me rather nuts at times, but it takes all kinds to make the world go round! lol

I have previously written about two different individuals that I wasn't getting along with very well. One of them & I have become very close again & i'm very glad :o) I missed her as I have said before, I love the way she makes me think!! The other I have re-established communications with, we'll see how that goes!! lol I love spending time with my friends but am trying to remember that my sanity comes from my quiet by myself time!! Time to think, go within & to contemplate!!

So today, as my hubby is going to be out with the boys from work & my kids are going off to mom's, I think i will have lunch with a friend but then I'm coming home & enjoying being with myself. lol It goes with my previous writing, if we don't know who we are, then how can we love ourselves!!! In order to love others, we need to love ourselves first!!!!!

My prediction for 2009 was that 2009 was going to be fine!! So far it has been. Bring on fall!! I can't wait to see what the rest of 2009 has in store!!!

Have a great weekend everyone!!


Friday, September 11, 2009

Well I haven't been writing lol so much for writing on here everyday! Today I just had too much to say for a one line comment on facebook or msn.

Today is a day of emotion for many. My thought on 9/11 for today "May we never forget that we are not untouchable!"

A friend on facebook has the comment today " That Karma is how we react to other people!" This has me a little befuddled!! Does the law of Karma not state "What you put out comes back to you times 3?" Yes we should be aware of how we react to other people, but letting people humiliate & walk all over us is not good for the soul. Maybe what we should remember here, is to be aware that maybe we have done something to someone in past & this is karma's way of giving it back to us! I read Eckhart Tolly's book & did the classes that Oprah did & I believe his idea's of "Being in the moment" are good ones!! If we are aware of what we are doing right now at this very moment then we will be aware of our reactions!!!

Gotta head out. Have a great day!!! :o)

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Happy Easter Everyone!! :O)

Hope everyone had a great holiday with their families. :O)

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Hahaha OUCH Hehehe OUCH lmao OUCH

Well I finally got my surgery done thank goodness. I'm sore, cranky & dopey. lol

I've realized that morphine is an awful, awful, drug. Anyone who takes it willingly, in my opinion lol, needs their head examined. I'd much rather be in pain!!!!

I also realized that you should not watch The Comedy Network with an abdominal incision. hehe OUCH.

Have a great day everyone!!


Sunday, March 29, 2009

Today would have been my Grandfather's 93rd Birthday!! He taught me to love nature & to love the Earth. I miss him very much!!!! He may not have followed a specific religion but he was the most Spiritual person I've ever known. I believe in my heart that this has to do with the stories he used to tell me about time he spent with the Native American people in Death Valley! Love you Papa!

Thursday, March 26, 2009

What can Spirits Do?

Well if you know me, you know that I'm always joking about the Ghosts of McFarland Manor!! lol I do have spirits in my house & I revel in their company. Yes I'm weird, as most of my friends tell me!! lmao

Anyway, yesterday when I was on the computer, I watched my friend sign in & out of MSN Messenger. Why would I find this weird you wonder. Because my friend works nights & was sleeping at the time. As the message kept coming up " signed in" & then "signed out" over & over again, I recalled a day when I had been over at a friends house having coffee. We had gone over to her computer to check some stuff out on the internet. While we were doing this, I sat there & watched myself sign in & sign out of msn over & over again. I thought this was pretty good since I was halfway across the city!!!

So as I was watching my friends msn continue to do this yesterday, I jokingly said to my husband "............... ghost is playing with her computer!" lol

But now I've got to thinking because I know my friend does have at least one Spirit in her house!! The ice cold shiver up my spine kind of gave that away when I went to visit her, & since I know that I have several in my house, mostly ancestors coming to visit, it got me to thinking............Just what can Spirit's do??
Here is one to totally freak you out; I had a very strange, vivid, wake up with a jolt dream just before Christmas. One of those ones that you know have meaning but have no idea what that meaning is!! When I woke up the next morning & went on the computer....there was a webcam picture of me getting my morning coffee about two hours earlier. I had not taken it & everyone else in the house was sleeping!!! So who HAD taken the picture????
There seems to be proof that Spirits can be heard through recording devices, many people have pictures of orbs, me included. There is even photographic evidence that Spirits show up in pictures taking form. We have all heard stories of ghost moving objects..........& I swear one of mine is a trickster lol, but can our Spirits, our guides & our ancestors actually mess around with our computers??? Wouldn't surprise me in the least!!!!

Just a note of thought!!!!

Have a great day everyone :O)

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Why Don't People Worry About Themselves First!!!!

Well it's been awile. I only write when the feeling strikes, or I have need to vent!!! lol
I feel the need to write today about why people don't worry about themselves instead of throwing their mistakes in other people faces!!!!!!!

I call these people (well if they are women anyway) Drama Queens!! Always a need to have some kind of chaotic comotion in their lives. These are usually the same women WHO HAVE TO HAVE A MAN!!!!

Now I may not be one to talk as I have been with my hubby for 21 years now! We just celebrated our anniversary last week! But are these people truly dumb enough that they do not see what their endless cycles of chaos, drama & self-sabotage do to themselves & to others???? And god forbide anything ever be their own fault!!!! Nope, it's their kids fault they don't have a man, it's their friends fault they don't have a social life & their parents fault for them being where they are in their adult lives.


Until we learn to like ourselves, no one will truly like us!!!

Until we learn to love ourselves, no one will ever love us!!!!

Until we take pride in who we are & know what we stand for, we are all lost in this adventure of life!!!

Why is it most people are uncomfortable getting to know themselves? There really is no shame & should be no regret in who we are! You would not be who you are unless you had gone through those things that have brought you to where you are!!! If you don't like where you are then there is only one person that can change that. Dropping friends, changing your appearance, changing jobs, none of these will matter until you sit down with yourself, decide what you want & what it is that you are going to do to get there!!!! This is when the positive change will occur.
Have a great day everyone!


Thursday, March 12, 2009

Note to not throw cast iron frying pans....they put holes in the walls!!!!

It has been my personal joke for awhile now!!!! Before Christmas whenever my hubby (the HULK today lmao) went on a rant I would say something like: "I'm asking Santa for a cast iron frying pan!" Well a couple of weeks ago, my darling, sweet, Bruce Banner bought me a cast iron frying pan when we were on a trip to Ikea.

So then, my joke was......Barry bought me a cast iron frying pan......little does he know bad I can't lift it!!! lmao Just my way of preventing myself from also getting in a bad mood when the Hulk showed up. lol

This morning he woke up late & was in a total rant. Believe me I wanted to give it to him back! Grrrrr. But instead, as the Hulk was leaving for work, I yelled out the door after him "Have a great day!" With only a slight hint of sarcasm in my voice. lol And if you believe that, I have some swamp land in Florida for sale............Oh wait, mom already sold that to some guy who wanted to put a couple million in her bank account from overseas. lol

So my joke for today is...... Note to not throw cast iron frying pans........they put holes in the walls!!!!!! I don't need any help for that, lmao I still have the Christmas tree shaped hole in my wall from before Christmas. LOL

You have to admit, lol it does kinda look like a Christmas tree! Better the walls then the children!!!! lmao or the husband!!!!!

Have a great day everyone!!


Tuesday, March 10, 2009

I still have a job!!!! lol

So far anyway!!! lmao She was fine last week when I went in, but she had me scheduled every weekend but last weekend until i'm off for surgery. I told her that I wasn't available the weekend of the 21st of March because it's our 1st/21st anniversary!!! All she said was that she would have to talk to HR about that!!! I felt like asking her if she knew how to think for herself or not, but like a good girl, I bit my tongue. lol Now she's in Italy & I have no answers as to how the schedule is working!!!!

I was also really disappointed yesterday because I didn't get the call from Shopper's that I was expecting!!!! But everyone thinks that the manager is leaving so it might all work out, especially since there are more hours to be had now! lol

Other than that everything is pretty quiet around here lately!

Hope everyone has a great day!!!!

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Maybe I should've picked a different title for my blog?? lol

Well off to work I go!! I have to go back to work today with a boss who told the company if I showed up she would quit!!!

So how should I take this!! Well.....the way my brain works lol I have to take it that she doesn't know how to deal with people who are self assured & have strong personalities. I'm sorry but putting up with manipulation & game playing is not in my life agenda!!! I just told a really good friend that she was a female dog lol because of this kind of why would I put up with it from an employer. Some may say you need the money from your job, I say however that life & the universe give you what you need, when you need it!! I have always had this trust (some might call it faith) ever since I can remember, & there may have been times when I couldn't have what I wanted, but I have always had what I need. Food, a roof over my head & love! Really that is all we truly need in life, isn't it???

Maybe this is Mom's fault for teaching me to not put up with people's BS lol (why not blame mom lmao) But she is right!! Life is too short to play games & play with people's minds. I have never liked fake people!!

So off I go into the Lion's den, I may not have a job at the end of the day, but at least I'll be at peace & harmony in my heart & soul!!!


Live, laugh, love, dance but most importantly be true to yourself!!!!

Friday, February 27, 2009

Yippeeeeee!!!! lol

Well I got my surgery booked for April 3 :O) the only bad part about it is that I will miss the rock & gem show for the first time in about 7 years!!:O( But it's day surgery which makes it all worth it! lmao

I also talked to my Dr. yesterday about the cholesterol thing (he was away last week) & he said because it's heritary that just to take the medicine & enjoy life!!! COOL :o)

The conversation actually went like this " I haven't started taking my medicine yet cause I wanted to talk to you (me to Dr.) first because you know the family history. Mom said that you would say that cholesterol is 90% heriditary & to just take my medicine!!"
Dr. " Well your mom is mainly right (was disputing the %), when cholesterol is heriditary there is nothing changing your diet will do" Put one on the wall for mom, lol & he was laughing when he said it. What I say is "HURRAY for heriditary cholesterol" lmao hehe

So I got my medicine, but I'm going to enjoy the weekend & have a few drinks before I start taking the medicine on Monday. ppplllggghhh But at least he changed which one I was going to be taking because I told him I love grapefruit & grapefruit juice. Guess he figured if there was a fruit or vegetable that I actually ate then he better let me have it!!! lmao

Anyway, back to the surgery!!! lol The surgeon said that I have only one hernia (thank goodness) & it's not as big as I thought!! So should heal quick!! However, little do my kids know & much to their dismay I won't be attending any water parks, amusement parks (well at least going on the rides lol) that will make this happen again. I also told my hubby not to expect me to be going nuts around the house (painting, housework etc) for the next year. I want this healed & I definitely do not want it back!!!!

Have a great one everyone!

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Two Wolves - A Cherokee Story

One evening an old Cherokee told his grandson about a battle that goes on inside people.
He said,
“My son, the battle is between two “wolves” inside us all. One is Evil. It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego. The other is Good. It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith.”
The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather,“Which wolf wins?”
The old Cherokee simply replied,“
The one you feed.”
Thank you Sarah for sharing! :O)

About Time

Well I finally get to go to the surgeons today!! And about time as far as I'm concerned!!! I've had this stupid thing since the end of August (my hernia), well at least that I noticed but I really think it started in July!

I'm getting right on his A$# about getting me in too! I mean, he tells me to lose weight (grrr) but leaves me to the point where just walking around Crappy Tire with my hubby the other day I was in pain!!!

I can't do Yoga, ( so my backs messed), I can't even go for walks, but this inconsiderate, money making you-know-what, wants me to lose weight!! And people wonder why I have no faith in Doctors. Gee I wonder!!!! Well he's in for a big surprise because I'm going to channel Mom of her younger years while i'm in that appointment today. Geeze it's getting to the point where i'm about to lose my job over this!!! In fact, I think the call I got from the HR girl the other day was basically letting me know that I had. That was until I told her that my Manager wasn't following my Doctor's instructions & work restrictions!! That sure made her change her attitude!!!!

Do these people really think I'm stupid. I mean, truthfully, I don't lay all my cards on the table but that's to prevent outrageous expectations(lol) but I've told most of them that I used to supervise upwards to 120 people & didn't have the issues these people have. Plus the manager I work for now likes to manipulate people. But I was taught by the best at manipulation, guilt trips & controlling from afar, she has nothing on my mother of younger years!!! Sorry mom but you were the Queen!!! lol Especially when you had a teenage daughter!! lmao. Don't get me wrong my mom is awesome & if she hadn't done these things when i was younger & I wouldn't have the awareness of these things in life now. Let's just say, not too many people can put one over on me, cause I can USUALLY see right through them!!!

Ok enough of my venting & ranting for today! lmao
Hope everyone has a great day!!!

Monday, February 23, 2009

Well this is what I think of my lifestyle change!!! I made sure I had lots of fruits & vegetables when we did groceries on the weekend. But I just can't afford to go out and buy all low fat or no fat products right now. However, as we need to replace them, I will make sure they are replaced with no fat, or low products.
The one I'm really going to have problems with is gravy!!!!!! I love gravy & that is why I made sure I made beef stew on the weekend lol. I usually eat gravy on everything, buns, potatoes, bread etc. I can make low fat cookies & such but I really don't think that there is anyway that you can make low fat gravy!!!!!
Have a great day everyone!!!

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Brandon's Trip to Quebec

Brandon had sent me a text last Wednesday, he was in the snow park & had become confused!! But he was smart enough to text me in his confusion rather than getting upset!! This actually took alot of worry off my mind for the rest of the trip lol !!!

He got home around 6 on Friday evening & boy did he have some stories to tell!!! He was worried that the other kids were going to do something to him, or steal his stuff, so he slept on the bathroom floor every night he was away, with the door locked!!! (If you don't know, Brandon is on the Autistic spectrum with Asperger's syndrome)

One Thursday they went to another park where they could, snowshoe, dog sled etc!! For this to be understood, you have to realize that Brandon does not like to fail!!! He sometime will break down if he can't figure something out or can't make something work!!!
So I guess they went dogsledding, lmao & when it was his turn to drive, he ran with the dogs up the hill but couldn't jump on the sled. I think I must finally be rubbing off on my oldest son because as he was telling me the rest of the story, he started to laugh "You should have seen Sheldon trying to stop them (the dogs) from the sled Mom"!!! Considering at one time he probably would have been upset that he didn't do it, I'm very proud that he saw the humor in it, something I'm always trying to tell him to do!

Then I guess when they went snowshoeing, he was lagging behind. He could still see everyone but he ended up getting stuck up to his knees in the snow. In his words "They had to put out a rescue mission for me mom"!!!! lmao To get this part (the humor anyway lol ) you have to realize that Brandon is about 5'8" & weighs about 220 lbs. His teacher, who is male, is about 5'5" & weighs about 180 lbs, but thank goodness is very muscular lol. Anyway, back to the story. Brandon's teacher had to come back & help him. Brandon said he kept sinking almost every step on the way back. Poooooor teacher lol. But then I guess the teacher got stuck too & Brandon ended up having to help HIM!!!!! That is probably what made that part of the trip special for him, lol knowing that an adult needed his help!!!!

Those were the things he told me as soon as he got home, to some it might seem like this was the worst trip in the world. But he was happy & chipper like it was the best trip he has ever been on!!!!!

He didn't get any pictures - grrrrrr!!! - except of course of the amusement park that is in the Mall that they went to. I guess that's what you call out of the eyes of a teenage boy!!! lmao I will post them once he gives me his camera lol


Saturday, February 21, 2009

"I'm Always Right"

This is a phrase one of my friends say to me all of the time. I really don't like it but unfortunately, alot of the time it's true!!!!!

I went to the Doctors the other day & I do have high cholesterol!!! grrrrrr I'm blaming partly my mother (lmao the doctor told me this is a genetic condition 96% of the time) & my husband!!! The reason I'm partly blaming my hubby is because years ago I had been buying low fat everything, mayo, cheese, ice cream etc etc. But he had to whine & complain much like men usually do so we started buying the regular dairy products again!! For years if using anything on bread like mayo or peanut butter I have not used butter. In fact, I don't even use butter on a sandwhich!!! All for not at this point I guess!!!!

So I've decided I'm having a completely free weekend. Meaning, for this weekend I'm on a See Food Diet! lmao I made beef stew yesterday & plan on enjoying it while I can. This should be interesting for me since I'm not a fruit & vegetables person!!! uck!!!!!

So now my hubby & kids are in for a big surprise though lol, I've already been looking up healthy recipes online & have actually found some pretty good ones. But it is a much needed change. I've always been one to go for my check ups when needed & truthfully this is one test (cholesterol) that I've put off for a long time, knowing what it would entail!! But since I actually went & did it (the test) I guess I actually have to smarten up!!!

Food (sweets mmmmmmm) has always been one of my weaknesses, I'm one of those people who eat when they are mad, bored or depressed! Just don't think celery, apples & whole wheat are going to do that for me!!! lmao

Hopefully my surgery gets on the right track because until I have that done, there is really nothing I can do exercise wise!! Which is part of reducing your cholesterol!!! So I think I'll blame the surgeon who has been prolonging my surgery as well grrrrr lmao.

I'm not one to blame others, I usually step up to the plate if I'm at fault & yes my food choices over the years have not been good, but I was doing really well after my hysterectomy, I went from a size 22 down to a 12!!! Lost 40 pounds before my hysterectomy. (not after because the cyst they were removing was as big as a football. So while I was loosing weight, I was having to wear bigger pant sizes!!! So I think I was doing pretty good on my own until all this medical stuff came along!!! Mind you I wouldn't change having the hysterectomy in all the world. I feel so much better all the way around since I've had it that I would do it again in a heart beat!!!!!

Now that I'm done whining, lmao, I hope everyone has a great day!!!!

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Doctor's Today :O|

So I'm taking my youngest to school & then off I go to the Doctor's. Hopefully he'll have a copy of my CT Scan results but he should definitely have my blood test results!!! ugh

I am thoroughtly expecting my cholesterol to be high & considering I'm a Pharmacy Technician I seriously do not want to go on the drugs that are prescribed for this condition. I won't be able to drink Grapefruit juice which I love & you're not suppose to take these medications with juice at all. Kind of ironic though considering I just started drinking juice again after my first pregnancy 14 years ago!!! lol Let's just say the grape juice didn't sit to well & we were at my husband's parents house, who had white carpets at the time. That'll teach them for inviting a pregnant woman over with white carpets!!! LMAO

Anyway guess I'll just have to wait & see what the Doctor says!!! uck!!!

Have a good day everyone!!!!

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

My Rings

As per Annie's request here are pictures of the rings I got for my Birthday. The first one is the ring my Mom gave me. The second is the ring my husband gave me!!

Thank you both, they mean alot!!

Sorry it took so long Annie!!! lol


My Oldest's First Trip Away By Himself

I'm sure that most of you know Brandon considering he's all over Mom's blog! lol Well today he's off by himself for the first time!! He left early this morning with his school to go to Quebec City!!

True to Brandon's nature, lol I think he takes after his mom a little, he was up at 4am. We spent the better part of the day yesterday, making sure he had all his stuff. Hoping there wouldn't be any last minute packing, well so much for that idea!!! lol

He has his camera so hopefully he'll get some good shots of Old Quebec, a beautiful part of the city that I enjoyed the most on my trip to Quebec some unmentionable amount of years ago. When he gets back I'll post his pictures. He is a very good photographer! lol

True to the nature of a Mother watching her child go off for the first time, I cried! lol And will be worried about him the whole time. I'm sure he'll do fine & have alot of fun!!! :O)

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Barry & Jordan's trip to Buffalo

So about a week ago a friend on facebook asked "who was the ultimate Ottawa Senator fan." She had tickets that they couldn't use & was looking to give them away! So I commented on her status, lol, asking if she had seen Jordan's coat, blanket etc. She brought the tickets over a couple days later to Jordan's delight.

I wasn't thinking as I did this though, as Barry had tests to go for yesterday (He has Crohns). He went to have a whole body white blood scan done. He had to arrive at the hospital at 8am to have blood taken, & then return at noon to have the blood injected back into his system. During those 4 hours his blood was sent to another hospital & the white blood cells were removed from his system & tagged with a radioactive tag. It was actually these tagged white blood cells that were put back into his system. UGH!!!

So here's the best part to the story!!! lmao

We had an early supper & they left for the game just after 5pm our time. I was surprised I didn't hear from Barry until 7:45 that they had arrived. But knowing how reliable texting is I wasn't concerned. But from what I understand they got held up at the Border going into the United States. lol

Barry said a bunch of men were going from car to car. They came to his window & asked if anyone in the vehicle had, had a medical procedure done recently. Not thinking Barry said "No!" Well then he got thinking! lol He called the gentleman back & told him about the test he had done earlier in the day. This man put a geiger counter up to Barry & I guess the thing started going nuts! They pulled him & Jordan over to the side & scanned the vehicle (thank god they didn't tear it apart). Finally satisfied that it was Barry & not the vehicle setting off the counter they let them go on to their game!!! But did tell Barry that he'd been setting their counters off for a ways back!

So now I have a new nickname for my hubby. Actually two. lmao Bruce Banner & the Hulk. Think I'll save the Hulk for when he's on a rant about something, & Bruce Banner for when he's in a good mood. LMAO

At least those of you living in the United States can feel safe the Hulk will not enter your country. However, coming into Canada was no problem at all!!!!!!

Have a great day everyone!! :O)

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Cherokee Blessing

May the Warm Winds of Heaven

Blow softly upon your house.

May the Great Spirit

Bless all who enter there.

May your Mocassins

Make happy tracks

in many snows,

and may the Rainbow

Always touch your shoulder.

So I've just come to discover in the last few years that I am part Cherokee. I always knew that I was of Native American ancestry. But was not aware of the Cherokee. I stumbled across this blessing & really liked it so I thought I would share!!! :O)

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

So I got up this morning & ate & drank as much coffee as possible before 5:30 to go for my cat scan this morning!!! ugh

Then to distract myself from not being able to have anymore coffee (grrrrr) I decided to read Mom's (Mary's) blog. I seen that she had added pics & done the blog about my 40th birthday!! lol So guess what? I pilfered all the pics!! lol

I love this one of Griffyn giving me the absolute best bear hug in the world EVER!!!!! I had watched him & his brother on the Friday & taught Griffyn how to high five, low five & then hit knuckles. At the end I threw my arms out & said "Yeah Griffyn". To my utter amazement & joy he ran right up to me & gave the best bear hug I've ever had!! So of course when he came over on my Birthday we had to play the game again!!!! lol
I must say I look pretty rough in some of them (the pics), lol, but that's ok cause I was out partying the night before! :O)

I got some pretty amazing gifts as you can see from my Mom's site. Now if I can get the pics from Gram's camera I got it made lol. By the way, the candles on the cake really do say 12 don't they???? lmao

Have a great day everyone!!!! :O)

Monday, February 9, 2009

25 Things About Me!!!

I originally posted this on facebook. But since Mom liked it so much, I thought I would put it on here as well!!!

1. I love my hubby, he is the best man in the world. We finally got married last year after being together for 20 years.

2. My children bring me joy even when I want to videotape what they're doing so hopefully the judge will let me off. (some of you will get this one lol)

3. I returned to school in 2006 to become a pharmacy technician & just passed my certification exam in october through the Ontario College of Pharmacists (Yeah me!!!!)

4. I have not had a complete day unless I embarrass my children in some way, whether it be dancing in a store or at the school (this one works really well) or just bugging them about girls lol
5. I still miss my dad which seems kind of strange considering I never really knew him, he passed when I was 9 but had remarried.

6. I loved my grandfather with all my heart & soul!!!! He was my father figure & taught me many things about animals, nature & spirituality.

7. I am totally terrified of bees, but with good reason. One year (at band) camp (lmao no really camp) I seen two kids stung over 100 times each. I have blocked this out cause I remember them in the tree & I remember the ambulances but can not tell you what happened in between.
8. I am very happy that my not biological big brother added me as a friend! :O)

9. I miss my friend Erica very much!!!!

10. I love chocolate fudge cake, it is the only one i have for my birthday!!!

11. I had a hysterectomy last year. Best decision I ever made in my LIFE!!!!! Except now I have a hernia & have to go for further surgery. ugh!!!

12. My grandfather (yes the same one i love so much lol) traumatized me when I was 6 by watching the movie the birds....I don't hate birds but I sure don't like them flapping around my head. lol

13. I get hurt very easily

14. My favorite shows are: medium, ghost whisperer, fringe among others.

15. I love & have missed just hanging by myself. It brings me into prespective!!!

16. I am a very spiritual person, I enjoy learning about beliefs & lifestyles from all over the world!!

17. I have a gift that gives me premonatory dreams. They never fail me!!!

18. I believe that all people are equal, no matter their social situaion, race, religion or sexual orientation!

19. My goal is to be in the best shape & have the best health I've had in my life by the time i'm 50!! (was a 13 year goal) I started by losing 40 lbs but have gained some back with my hernia (can't do anything grrrr) the hysterectomy was another major step to that goal and hopefully so will be the hernia operation!

20. I LOVE to shovel snow!!! (hence there is some bitterness right now lol cause I haven't been able to do it for 2 years!!!!)

21. As any of the people who worked with me at NCO know.....I HAVE a temper!!! lol

22. My heritage is irish on my mothers side & french, oneida & cherokee on my fathers side (gee do you think this has anything to do with my temper????? lmao)

23. I think about my friend Cindy every year the @ beginning of December!!!! RIP

24. I also think about my neighbour Natalie every year in June (23rd I think) RIP

25. I am eccentric, unpredictable & say what I mean!!! I don't play games, I say it how I feel it!!!!!


As children we take for granted the things our parents do & say!!! As we get older (teenage years) we don't just ignore them we have a tendancy to dispise them!!!

Then we become young adults, we think we'll never say what our parents did!!!! We feel that we can do & say what we want & no one can stop us!

Then we become parents and all of a sudden those words we would never say start spouting from our mouths. We may still dispise our parents for some aspect of our lives but we should also thank them! For they are the ones that brought us into this grand adventure that we call life!! The ups & the downs - the good & the bad!

Bad things will always happen in our lives but the key to not letting it tear you up is acceptance!!! Acceptance that you are where you are suppose to be at this time!!! Why you ask? Maybe because of choices you have made or maybe just because you are at a point in your life where a certain life lesson is needed!!!! It may be that something down the road, in this grand adventure, requires it!!!!

Everyone of us on this earth is EQUAL!!! No matter race, religion or sexual orientation!!! Living our lives with love & caring for others on this earth & not only thinking about ourselves is necessity!!! For we are all connected -animal, vegtable& mineral, & when we only think of ourselves we lose out on so much that this grand adventure has in store!!

The Dalai Lama's 11th Rule for Living:Live a good honourable life. Then when you get older & think back, you'll be able to enjoy it a second time!

So I had a absolutely fabulous birthday which kind of amazes me cause out of all the people I invited to my party, not one showed up!!! But in a way it worked out for the better!! lol I met alot of nice people (my husband had invited from work) & because I didn't know them, I really wasn't afraid of making a fool of myself!!! Also I didn't feel like I had to watch out for anyone!!! Which unfortunately is something I'm always doing when i'm partying!! lol

The friend that I'm trying to work things out with sent me a very nice birthday greeting which made my day, considering the one who has forgotten about me for some dude, didn't. So she is gone. I have removed any possible method of communication with her except of course phones!! I can't make her forget my numbers, but hopefully she does!! lol I thought I would be more hurt but considering all the drama she brings with her it actually feels pretty good purging myself of her!!! :O)

My mom gave me the wedding ring that my dad had given her when they were married & my husband bought the amethyst ring that I had wanted!! Pretty strange for someone who only wore my engagement ring about 5 years ago!! lol

o now I'm 40 & I love it!! lol It's pretty amazing how when you're younger you don't want to get older but when it gets here it's not all that bad. I have learned many lessons in my life, & truly I'm not happy unless i'm constantly learning new things!!!!
My birthday was awesome!! :O) I received so many birthday wishes in various forms of media that i'm overwhelmed!!!!!

Thank you to everyone who wished me Happy Birthday on Mary's Writing Nook.

So now i'm 40!!! But that's ok lol cause like I always say, I'm really only 12!!

Have a great day everyone, will try to start writing on here more often!!!